Sometimes it is surprising to me how much I have changed my internal compass over the years. The situation described below would have been completely different had it happened at different stages of my adult life.
Just the Facts...
- Yesterday I had to take a test, and I only had that day to take it, I specifically had until 5pm at the latest to be at the testing center. I studied all morning, and headed out to the testing center at 1pm.
- On the way I stopped, and got lunch, and while eating a torrential rain storm started.
- Once I got there I made it under the awning with one leg soaked up to the knee, and the other just a little lower.
- I made it to the testing center to find out that they had no power, and were not able to start any new tests, but people who had already started could come back the next day to finish.
- I sent my teacher an e-mail telling her of the situation and lurked in the corner for about 30 minutes.
- After I lurked for a bit I went to see if they would let me take my test anyways. It was a pen and paper test. They could hold a CC, and I could maybe sit next to a window. They told me no, partially because without power they couldn't accept my payment, and partially because they couldn't do their job of monitoring test takers effectively with the power out.
- But they were kind and said as soon as the power came back they would also e-mail my teacher and tell her about the situation, and make sure I could come in tomorrow and test.
- At this point I wandered around campus for about another 15 minutes. While wandering the loud speaker came on, and informed everyone that power should be restored in the next half hour.
- I waited until power came back on. Then I went back, and took the test.
What was happening in my head...
- I am happy I studied this weekend, and Monday. I don't feel overwhelmed.
- I am not in a rush, I could goof for another 3 hours and still be able to take the test. I should fill my stomach with something before I take the test.
- Florida weather is AWESOME! Also, it was kind of silly of me to not have an umbrella.
- Huh, no power, I hope it comes back up soon.... Maybe I should tell my professor just in case. Cellphones + internet == awesome.
- Just sitting around here isn't doing me any good. Maybe I should try a new tact.
- That was really sweet of her to promise to e-mail my teacher also.
- I could go home, but I am not ready to give up on this.
- WOOHOO! There is a chance I can finish this today.
- Lets do this.
Reflecting on these events surprised me, because throughout my adult life, I have had various parts of the above scenario happen to me, and I did not react with such a mellow, cool, demeanor. There were times where getting soaked would have ruined my whole next couple of hours. I know from experience that at 19, me cramming the day of and not feeling "ready" was enough to stop me from even going in to take the test. Also in the early college years I was offered extra days multiple times, and I would take the extra day, but I didn't actually do any extra studying. I just delayed the inevitable. Another thing was I would be self centered. It is MY last day, to take this, you GOTTA help ME. I wouldn't even consider the fact that I was causing problems for them, or making them do something they shouldn't need to do.
I am not saying I am perfect now. I will always have something I need to work on, and that is a good thing.
Things I could have done better...
- Took the test on Monday. I had 3 days to pick from, and I chose the last.
- Came in earlier that day.
- Check the weather ahead of time and prepare accordingly.
- Prepay for the test and printed my receipt at home.
- Study more the weeks leading up to the tests so I didn't need as much study time just before.
- and so on...
Hopefully I can keep that moving forward. I like 31 year old me better than I like 19, 22, and 25 year old me. I also hope that I like 35, or 40 year old me better than current me.